For Hayley, it started with a game. Jumping across her parents’ pond, endlessly, obsessively. Unable to swim, she almost drowned. Later, this girl begins to wash her hands with neat bleach every day. So tormented is she by her need for cleanliness, she forgets to collect her eldest son from nursery. For a time, she struggles even to touch her newborn baby. In this utterly compelling autobiography, Hayley lays down exactly what it means to have the life-ruining, and deeply misunderstood, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder – and just what it takes to beat it.